Physical Manifestations

I came from a pretty normal childhood. My dad had regular employment, my mom was a stay-at-home mom, and I had a sister and a brother. We moved to Newport when I was about 12, and it was a great place to grow up, but I really had issues with my dad. I was not into rebelling - I never had a history of doing drugs or of alcohol abuse. I was heavily into track and cross-country and went into the Navy when I was 21, so I had about as straight a life as you can imagine. But I always dealt with fear, anxious thoughts, and depression. I worked for my dad, so I was around him a lot, but my dad had terrible anger and would demonstrate it often at work, yelling at people, and just driving them. Ultimately I came to the conclusion at age 48 or 50 that all along I was trying to please my dad but that wasn't going to happen because he wasn't happy with who he was.

I went to counseling to deal with all those issues. I was desperate; I knew there had to be a better life than what I was dealing with. I was tired of waking up in the middle of the night with anxious feelings, tired of living in fear. If you looked at me, you would think, “There's a nice guy who's doing great,” not realizing the battles that were going on internally. The counselors helped me deal with my dad but never really resolved anything because I still dealt with fear, anxious thoughts, feelings of inadequacy, and low self-esteem. I saw maybe 5 counselors before I found one that was really helpful.

So I've been through a lot of counseling, have studied the angelic, the demonic, I've read Kraft, you name it. But while I was appreciating the spiritual world out there I wasn't understanding what was available to me.

About 1-1/2 years ago it was suggested that I go see a woman who was offering counseling. But about two or three days before I met with her I developed an actual hole in my back on my left shoulder. We didn't know where it had come from - there was no sign of any scab, nothing. While she was counseling me she took me back to my early life, and when she traced my sense of fear back to being a little child, all of a sudden in front of me I saw a piece of plexiglass with the cross in the middle of it. At that point, seeing myself as a little kid, I felt safe, that nothing could get to me and I'm okay as a little kid. So it's just been a miracle.

I went through deliverance prayer with her, and what revealed itself to me was the Dragon. At that time the Dragon had his claws in my back, and he was hanging on in a big way. We prayed through it and I remember him finally letting go, but when he did I was literally lifted off the seat and dropped. I realized that all of a sudden I had the full armor of God on me, and I had a sword in my hand, and I was angry. I wanted to go to war with this SOB - that's the way I felt, that it had robbed my whole life. But she wouldn't let me, and instead she commanded it to go to the pit.

There was a lot of good stuff that came out of that experience. My family saw an immediate change in me, just a whole different demeanor, and the hole in my back went away. But in time I just didn't feel it was complete, I didn't feel like we were done. It was through a friend of my wife that we found out about Moriah. She had gone to Moriah and had been prayed for, and she said “Really, you want to go to Jim.” I didn't know Jim from the man in the moon, but I went, trusting that I needed to keep going after this stuff. And I also felt cheated that I didn't get to have another encounter with the Dragon; I knew that there had to be something more there.

A couple of days before I went to see Jim I found scratches on the backs of my legs that looked like I had walked through brush, almost like claw-marks. They were pretty deep, and they had scabs over them. To this day I have no idea where they came from. I literally almost crawled in to see Jim - I had a muscle spasm in my right leg that was killing me. Jim started praying for me, and the Dragon showed up. And in this case he had his claws into my arms, and it hurt. But at the same time I had the sword in my hand, and I was hanging onto that sword so tightly I thought I would break it. So it was a real battle. Jim got it released, but later on he asked if the Dragon was still there and it was, sitting off to the side, so he had to deal with that again.

He prayed against the demon of low self-worth, going back to an early age, feeling not only inadequate but stupid, and then we called out anxiety. Oddly, after going through this deliverance I felt like somebody had put a 2000 lb. weight on my chest, it hurt like a son-ofa-gun for about 3 hours afterwards. The next day I was trying to put on my socks and all of a sudden my whole right side tightened up, and it felt as if there were teeth going into my side. I said, “You just get out of here, Dragon,” and as fast as I did, it was gone. But it took me doing it.
Since that time, which was seven months ago, I have not had one anxious moment about anything. All of those feelings of inadequacy and anxiousness and depression, they're all gone.

I have two sons, and at one point during our prayer session Jim asked the enemy, “Do you have any other claim here?” And a voice that was much deeper than my normal voice spoke through me and said, “I want your boys”. I remember that it scared the bejeebers out of me, but that's how heavy the encounter was. At another point Jim prayed over my spirit, and at that time I didn't understand the difference between the flesh, the soul and the spirit. I had a heavy, heavy sense of pressure, and when he released that it was a huge relief and suddenly I could visualize three distinct figures representing the flesh, the soul, and the spirit, and I can still see them.

At the end, Jim prayed for anything physical that I was dealing with. At that point I shared this muscle-spasm issue that had been driving me crazy for 3 years. So Jim prayed for it, and I said, “Oh, I see a band around my”, and then I said, “Oh, it popped!” And since that day, which was 7 months ago, I have not had any pain in that leg at all. And I'm reminded of that daily, that I don't have that pain, that I can walk normally.

I grew up in the church and was active in the church literally my whole life. I came to Christ as a junior in high school, but all the time was dealing with the Dragon. And it didn't come from child molestation, drug abuse, witchcraft, any of that stuff. It had nothing to do with anything that I did; it was ancestral, and all I knew was that it came through my dad's lineage. My dad had been adopted, so I don't know anything about his true family. My spirit was really quenched - it was squashed - and to this day when I pray now or when I’m in worship, I'm really talking to my spirit, and wanting that to enlarge and to be really pushing the soul and pushing the flesh out. It’s really brought my time of worship to a level that I never would have experienced before.

I didn’t have an abusive life, but I always struggled with feeling that there’s got to be more to this life, and wondered why I had to fight these battles. I commend Jim for seeking testimonies from normal people that weren’t abused, but who were just trying to deal with life. They couldn’t pray their issues away, and even though they had the authority they didn’t know what the authority was against. I just can’t say enough positive things. I find myself definitely being a warrior, constantly thinking of the sword; that’s the battle I feel engaged in and that’s what I’ve been trained up in. And I’m grateful for two things: first, that I’ve got Jim and Moriah, but also that the path had been laid for me to get there.

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