Alcoholism

I was born into a family with a long history of alcoholism, promiscuity, drug addiction, adultery and divorce…as well as mental, emotional and physical abuse stretching back for generations. Dysfunctional family relationships just felt ‘normal’ to me. By the time I entered high school I was already trudging the tragic paths of my ancestors, and was a full-blown alcoholic by the time I graduated from college. I quit drinking for the first time a few years later and got married. My wife, Melissa, comes from a similar family heritage, and we soon discovered that our families’ historical patterns of brokenness had followed us right into our marriage.

Neither Melissa nor I had been to church in decades, but one day the idea came to us that perhaps Christianity might supply the answer to our problems. We started attending church, and prayed to receive Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior. We anticipated that our new lives as Christians would be smooth sailing from there on out, and so they were - for a little while. After our first son, Trevor, was born and diagnosed with Down syndrome, we clung to our new favorite Bible verse, Romans 8:28, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.” As our family grew, my greatest desire became the hope that our three sons would not turn out like me…that they might somehow avoid the inclinations of our unhealthy family legacies.

Sadly, while our sons were still quite young, I wandered away from the Lord and resumed drinking. After dragging my entire family through much painful aggravation, Melissa finally had enough and checked me into alcohol and drug rehab. After my three week sentence in that facility ended I started attending AA meetings, worked the ‘Twelve Steps’, called other alcoholics, and read the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous every day. Although I have remained sober now for over eighteen years, the ‘happy, joyous and free’ life that Alcoholics Anonymous had assured me God wanted me to enjoy always seemed to elude me.

While in rehab, I recommitted my life to Christ and claimed a new life-verse, Philippians 3:13-14, “…forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus”. I definitely wanted to forget the transgressions of my past and develop a closer walk with God in the future. In an attempt to achieve those ends, over the years I’ve read through the entire Bible numerous times, memorized hours of scripture verses, and averaged about an hour every morning in prayer, meditation and personal study. For the last few years I’ve taken my family to Church on Sunday mornings and Thursday nights, and actively participated in three different men’s Bible studies and one AA meeting every week. Melissa and I have attended numerous marriage retreats and spent thousands of dollars on both individual and couples’ Christian counseling. We’ve also spent many wonderful family vacations in Hawaii, and enjoyed date nights with each other two or three nights a month. Nevertheless, our marriage was still marked by foolish mistakes and willful sins on my part, and Melissa was seriously contemplating whether or not she wanted to stay in our marriage. Where was the freedom that was promised to us in John 8:31-32, “If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free”?

Then Dr. Jim Hanley came and spoke at the Friday morning InfluencersMen’s Bible study I attend. He shared briefly about his inner-healing and spiritual deliverance ministry, Moriah Freedom Ministry, which had helped bring freedom to the hearts, souls, minds and bodies of thousands of Christians over the course of more than twenty years of ministry. Pastor Jim explained that many Christians accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior, thinking all of their problems will be solved, but they soon discover that they’re still under bondage to many of the same spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical issues they suffered from before they came to Christ. Jim described Moriah’s guiding principles by quoting from Isaiah 61:1, “…He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release prisoners from the darkness.” Well, if anyone ever needed to be set free, it was me. And if anyone ever needed to have their broken heart mended, it was Melissa. We bought two copies of Jim’s and Tracy Kayser’s book, “Healing the Shattered Soul”, read them frantically from cover-to-cover, and registered for the next Moriah all-day seminar.

At the seminar Jim explained that for Christians who’ve consistently struggled with dysfunctional behavior throughout their lives, the process of deep inner-healing can help identify any emotional wounds that may have occurred in their childhood. By addressing those strongholds of traumatic memory at the age in which they were formed, these unconscious, dissociated parts can be fused and made whole with the Christian’s core personality through the process of evangelism, confession and forgiveness. Regarding spiritual deliverance, Jim first commented on the typical born-again Christian’s mistaken belief that Satan cannot internally influence their behavior to any meaningful degree. Jim countered this viewpoint both through relevant Scriptural references and his personal experiences in delivering thousands of truly saved Christians, i.e., the Holy Spirit now lived within their spirit, but who were nevertheless demonized and had demonic spirits residing in their body and soul. These evil spirits attack and deceive Christians into feelings of fear, anger, lust, shame, guilt, confusion, insecurity, rejection, and other harmful emotions, as well as tempting them into immoral and/or addictive actions relating to alcohol, abortion, sex, drugs, food, pornography, gambling and other vices, and then subsequently blaming, accusing and questioning their salvation by virtue of their having participated in such non-Christian activities. These demons can enter Christians’ lives through ancestors’ actions, personal invitations, emotional wounds, and/or unconfessed sins. With tears streaming down our cheeks, Melissa and I sat mesmerized in the front row all day as we came to understand that there might actually be reasons for, and solutions to, the decades-long afflictions that had plagued us and our families. We both jumped at the opportunity to sign up for individual prayer sessions.

I was extremely anxious on the drive up to Moriah’s office for my first prayer session with Jim a few weeks later. I had many thoughts such as ‘this won’t work for me’, ‘this is a complete waste of time’ and ‘just turn around now and go home’ careening around in my mind. But, regardless, I did show up and Jim put me completely at ease upon arrival. He conducted a casual background interview, confirmed the validity of my salvation experience, and asked Jesus to join us in the ministry session. Prayerfully, Jim was able to identify and lead two sub-personalities of mine through the processes of evangelism, confession and forgiveness. As an adult I figured I had already accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, confessed and re-confessed my sins innumerable times and forgiven relatives, friends, strangers and myself for injuries; however, something powerfully transformational occurred when my five- and twelve-year-old selves underwent these same spiritual disciplines. Without a doubt, I had a greater sense of internal wholeness after that night’s session than I’d ever felt before.

Melissa, too, experienced the same sense of inner healing and spiritual freedom after her session was over. Of course, we’re both well aware that while many of our sinful choices can be attributed to demonic influences, our flesh is more than capable of tempting us into sinful behavior. The main difference in our spiritual lives today is that we now know we don’t have to listen to, or act upon, every questionable thought that comes into our heads. The determining factor for both of us to now remain internally whole and spiritually free is to not allow ourselves to fall into the old sinful habits that were the source of so many problems and allowed the enemy to gain entrance into our lives.

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